WAIT, I'M TURNING 25?

2018 is the year I'll be turning 25 and this is the first time I'm genuinely shocked at my own age. I've never been too excited about my birthday in the past (except for when I was a kid) nor have I planned extravagant outings or dinners with my friends. I always felt like it was just too much of an effort. But just last week, I suddenly thought: "Woah... I'm turning 25 in the summer? Just like that?" NO WARNING WHATSOEVER.

Why does this particular age feel a little different? I see 25 as a grown age. I will be in my mid-twenties. That means I've been living on this earth for 2 whole decades... plus 5 years. That means in 5 years time, I will be turning 30. Whichever way I put it, it sounds worse.

Is it bizarre to feel like I'm a lot younger than I am? I still wear the same pair of converses that I bought 10 years ago. It fits well and it's in great shape. I sometimes sit in my room, with my coloured pencils and books, and just draw and colour things in. I don't know what this means, but I subconsciously do things that make me feel young and stress-free.

Weirdly enough, every time I'm out with my sister, who's 1 year older than me, people tend to ask us who is older. And to my surprise, EVERY single time they guess, they always assume I am older. It's so mind-boggling. Maybe the way I see myself is completely different to the way others see me.

For my 24th birthday, I definitely wasn't in the mood to celebrate. All I really wanted to do was get my eyebrows done (it was long overdue, trust me) and do a bit of shopping. And that's exactly what I did that day. I bought a top from H&M and a bunch of rings. I had to cancel plans just to spend time with myself. I was happy with that. I don't mind buying gifts for someone else or wishing other people a "Happy Birthday" - but when it comes to my own, my perfect day would involve spending some quality time with myself and just doing whatever I need to do.

When I was young, I imagined being married with a bunch of kids at 25. What will I be doing this year? Definitely won't be giving birth, that's for sure.

Note to my younger self: Your predictions were a little off. 25 came out of nowhere. Start mentally preparing for the big 30 so it doesn't sneak up on you. But the converses you like? Timeless. :)